Rains - Mika

we have a problem.. i am in love with Mika. :)

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 29

#29 - today, i want your day so well planned, you have to write down when you are taking potty breaks. :) a day should be planned, so get a plan and do it. when i plan my life, i think "but all this never really will happen..." why not? set out crazy goals. have dreams. if you work hard, have faith, and just do it, you'll get to the end of the day and be like, "wow. it actually happened." having a dream is great, but having a plan to accomplish that dream is even better. if you take one day at a time and plan them out, taking baby steps, you'll be there before you know it :)

Elizabethan Sonnet - Sarah Messick

If ever I am gazing at a flower,

I admire the nature of its grand design

I wander at its elegance and power;

How fast it grows from healthy to benign.

Why would God design such fleeting beauty?

When glamor lies in many concrete things

T’would seem if he created such complexity,

He’d share its radiance more than a week.

Perhaps God rares this fairness with endeavor 

To make man stop, admire, then recall.

For maybe if each flower lived forever,

We wouldn’t think them beautiful at all.

What gives something its value is not lace;

It’s the lows that make the highs embellished with grace.

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 28

#28 - do something nice for someone you think is having a harder time than you. we are all going through our own personal battles. you may think someone is doing alright, but they might not be. you just need to treat everyone with a special kindness that all human beings deserve. even the cashier at wall-mart or the bus driver. when you ask "how are you?" the automatic answer is "good" or "i'm fine" do we ask that question because we actually care? or do we ask it because it's just something you say to fill a silence? let every word count. someone might need to hear what you say. they might need your love, your attention, your concern, your prayers. be sincere. be kind. because whatever you're going through, your battle that you are fighting, there is always someone fighting a worse one, and the wounds might be covered behind a mask. so do something that shows you care. give your time, your understanding, patient friendship, your advice, your comfort. live for someone else today.

J

J is a flat plain. then J is a falling down but shooting back up when you get to the bottom. J is doing. J is changing. J is useless. there's already a G. why do we need J? no J in giant or giraffe. in geranium or germ. jump could be spelled g-u-m-p if you think about it. why do we need J? because there's a J in just. Just dancing. just living. Just getting back up when things are at their lowest. Just proving everyone wrong when the world says you can be replaced with a G. we are all J's. feeling like our sound is just borrowed. but we have our own place in the alphabet and we will make ourselves heard. we are just living. Just breathing. Just sharing our sound with the world. we are all J's.

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 27

#27 - well, i know it's been a while, but i'm trying to get better ;) my life is kinda hectic right now.. so the challenge is extremely hard and i don't know how long i will last. go without your cell phone for as long as you can. whew. i'm here at school and i don't have it and i feel naked. (that word caught your attention didn't it?;) in this world you can't escape. we are always plugged in: movies, music, games, talking, texting. (don't even get me started on the tweeting thing... whatevertheheckthatis.) you go home and close the shutters trying to escape people but you can't! you always have to be communicating. with facebook or your phone or whathaveyou. you can't hide from the world. there was a time when you could just ignore your phone and people would leave you alone. our heads get so full with data they overload. when was the last time you just sat quietly listening to your breathing and just cleared your mind? not worrying about that guy who is texting you or that other guy who won't text you. you sit and listen to the silence. the sound of it will crawl into your head, your lungs, your bloodstream, and just open the tiny spaces in there. then the universe can rush in and you will think things you never thought before. you will be able to find peace, just listen.

welcome may :)

Dear May,
i don't know how i feel about you... we've gotten off to a very rocky start. but like the sun that has finally decided to show up, i think we will get along eventually. i like you may, i always have. but i don't know what our relationship is going to be like this year. i hope we will become friends, maybe hold hands a bit. you seem like a fun-loving, spunky month, and i still trust you :) so i'm going out on a limb, and giving you my whole heart and hoping that you will accept it and love me back.
Love, Kelly

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 26

#26 - this is all about patience. in this world of instant connection, communication, gratification, and food-ication, we want things now! if we can't buy it, we charge our credit cards. we have to have it now. but the Lord isn't all about now. in fact, he usually is about later. He knows what is best for us, and it usually teaches us patience. i know it will be hard, but just go with it. i have looked back and seen that the way the Lord answers prayers is not the way i expected, or at the time i expected. but i look back and it is such a precise answer to my prayer and better than i could ever have hoped. "knock on the sky and listen to the sound." and the sound might be quite different than you thought it would be.

heaven is

why am i content in pain? i am stronger, choose to smile. i count my blessings and think of others first. being a friend to some one is better than being your own friend first. laughing even when it hurts does more for your situation than crying. tears are lonely and useless. immerse yourself in life, in your emotions and the feeling of now. we are teenagers. we never die. :) we all live for a moment. we live for the day. we live to love.

the starting line

i have lost my spark. somewhere i lost it. my drive, my passion. my joy to live. i know it's hiding somewhere. it is when we are broken that we find what we care about. i feel like i will find it soon. that my writing will become who i am and not just who i want to be. i will wake up in the morning and feel like i use to. excited, ready, willing. my ideas will be inspiration, not just recycles. i will wake up one morning and find what i lost.

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 25

#25 - you are you. and even when you try something different (#24) you are still you. no one should tell you who to be or how to act. i have a friend that i think gets embarrassed about if what she is doing is cool or not. who cares!? if you like country music, like it. (i actually hate it... very much) you don't have to be anyone for anyone. if you're loud, be loud. don't hide your personality. don't be one person around your friends and then another person around your other friends. be true to yourself. it's annoying when people act like someone they're not. don't like a food just because your best friend likes it. she wont hate you for not liking it. you're different. who wants to be the same?

that's sooo cliche! - creative writing

That’s sooo cliché!

It dawned on me that

I don't know how to break this to you

But.... I have half a mind

To give you a piece of my mind.

I know that every cloud has a silver lining,

And that there’s a light at the end of the tunnel

But this is a whole new ball game.

You make me crazy

You really get my goat

I know you hear no evil

So tell me if I’m barking up the wrong tree

But you’re always lying like a rug

This is small potatoes considering the fact that

You are as proud as a peacock

And the bigger they come, the harder they fall

So you should be ready to bite the bullet

Because I would be pleased as punch

If you would hit the road

You might be sick as a dog for leaving

But you are as hard as nails

As solid as a rock,

And time is a cure

But it’s a cardinal sin to

Cry over spilt milk

This too, shall pass.

you're young, you'll get over it

Behold your little ones

In our logic, we loose the magic. In our learning, we loose the faith. In our being taught what's right, we loose our imagination. In our knowledge we loose our wisdom.

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 24

#24 - We are all somebody: a jock, a flirt, the smartypants, whathaveyou, but there was always somebody else you wanted to be. So be that someone else. I'm not saying totally be fake and ditch your friends and get a new wardrobe, but if you've always wanted to be an artist, try it! You might find that you're really good at it. Maybe you want to be less of a gossip like your best friend whatsherface. Try it. This part of your life is to figure out who you are. We are all unsure. We all have no idea what we're doing. (huh, life? This is my first time... You?) we are all pretty much freaked out of our minds. So unless you were a snail in a previous life, I'm pretty sure you are an insecure teenager like me (I don't know if snails can be teenagers but all the ones I have met have been pretty insecure) so wear cowboy boots, lipstick and a tinkerbell backpack, try being something you're not, (but still be true to your standards and stuff;) be fresh to deth.

who we are

people are creatures of love and hate. they need love. they need the feeling that someone cares and would be willing to put you above their ego and selfish desires. can we only love once? what a joy to think that no matter how many times you break off a bit of your love and give it to some one else, your supply is never empty.  love is the only thing that increases as you give it away. but we must learn to love. the natural man would put his wants and needs above helping and loving others. to find and learn love, we must listen to our souls. our souls are pure and want what's right over what's comfortable. we must learn to love wholly, unconditionally, and universally. to accept and search for love. love is something we knew completely in a different life, but now true love feels like trying to remember a dream. almost there, but slipping. but i dream of it every night. i know it's there. my job now is to have faith, take a stand, walk up to the edge, and jump in.

lyrics of the day! better days - goo goo dolls

if you haven't noticed yet... i have a MAJOR thing for the goo goo dolls. ;)

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this endless fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 23

#23 - help someone that is in a worse situation that you. there is always someone having a harder time than you are. we are always so wrapped up in ourselves that we don't see others that need our strength and our experiences. sometimes, when you are going through a difficult time, it seems less painful to just curl up somewhere and avoid people. isolating yourself only gives you more pain. the way to forget, forgive, and move on is to involve yourself, be humble enough to accept help and listen to advice, and -most of all- we need to reach out to others. God answers our prayers, but it is usually through other people. you need to be that other person. remember what's happened, be happy about what's happening, and be ready and excited for where you will be.

Lyrics of the day! On the Brightside - Nevershoutnever

I met a man of two feet tall
This man was quite ambitious
In a world that is so vicious to us all
I said, "Hi," as he replied
He said, "Listen to these words
That I have lived by my whole life

"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be
And you're only as small as the world will make you seem
When the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall
Just look on the brightside - you're roughly six feet tall"

I met a man of 12 feet tall
He towered like a giant
In a world that was defiant of his height
I said, "Hi," as he replied
He said, "Listen to these words
That I have dreaded my whole life

"You're only as tall as your heart will let you be
And you're only as small as the world will make you seem
When the going gets rough and you feel like you may fall
Just look on the brightside - you're roughly six feet tall."

I am a man of six feet tall
Just looking for some answers
In a world that answers none of them at all
I'll say, "Hi," but not reply
To the letters that you write
Because I found some peace of mind

Cause I'm only as tall as my heart will let me be
And I'm only as small as the world will make me seem
When the going gets rough and I feel like I may fall
I'll look on the brightside - I'm roughly six feet tall.

Nearer, My God, To Thee - day 22

#22 - today, this week, I want you to do something you've never done before. Life is full of chances to do something wonderful, different, new. Look around you. There are things that you are itching to try but never had the courage to do. Take a deep breath and plunge into the unknown. You never know how it will turn out until you try :) do something amazing that you will look back on and be glad you did. Try something crazy ;) carpe diem

oh what a crazy thing i did! i've never done it before... and i kinda don't know how i feel about it. haha. it was a good experience... that's all i'm going to say.

Good morning April!

i woke up and it was april. and the world was so... APRIL that i just had to stand for a while and breathe it all in. what does april have in store for me? hope... i hope. when the world wakes up and the sun remembers earth. that's april. how do we forget the miracle that will happen every spring? we know it's coming, but do we see it when it does? the clouds, hot ground, the blue, the blue, the blue. and green. with all the fake tree boughs of winter and the plastic holly, when was the last time i saw green? not a cheep replica, but the fresh green that only earth can make. ah, april :) i believe that i will heal with the earth. i hope i will. scars from winter will melt with snow and i will once again become the beautiful creation God made me as. cheers to april. :)